Right now that's how it feels. I don't feel motivated to get out in the greenhouse or garden. I don't want to start any new projects. I force myself to write and keep up with this blog and my other blogs.
Because retirement is right around the corner, just days away. I know life is about to change drastically so to keep up with my everyday activities--well, they're just overshadowed. My mind is elsewhere, planning ahead, making sure everything is taken care of, working on budgets, etc. I worry that we won't have enough money. I wonder if we'll really be able to make the ends meet.
In the midst of all my worrying, Larry has a few things going on like reassessment by the Veteran's Administration. PTSD and Agent Orange have had huge impacts on his life and now the VA is looking into that. This could be a good thing but right now it's another layer on top of the other things I'm trying to assimilate and deal with.
So if I haven't been writing about home things, now you know why. Soon, very soon, the layers of worry will begin to shed like old skin. And then, I hope, I will be able to focus on the things I love once again, and to laugh about how I was so worried.
So stay tuned. We'll return to our regularly scheduled programming on May 11--the first official day of retirement.